one night....she..

Tiêu đề: one night....she.. Tue May 13, 2008 9:18 pm

One night, the sky said to me, “If she makes you cry, why don't you leave her?” I looked at the sky and said, “Sky, would you ever leave your Moon?”

But now, I can’t believe I just gave up. I just let you drop out of my life. I tried to do everything to make you stay, then one day it just got too hard and I saw that what you really wanted was a life without me. Sitting here and watching u r going far…so far away from me, I know that I’m losing you. So I gave up and now you're really gone…gone away. I wish I could make you come back - but tears, wishes and prayers do nothing but make my pain more…my heart has been broken in pieces…

I’ll never forget the times we once shared, and I’ll never forget how much you once cared. I was never upset at you for anything you did. The couple times that you were angry with me, I thought myself “it's because you love me”. Why do you want to go away? You can do everything, you can want me to do anything you want, but please don’t go…please don’t let me be on my own. How could we say goodbye to what we had, the good times that made us laugh. I thought we'd get to see forever, but forever has gone away - it's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday. Say goodbye – the word I have never known before…

I miss the times when you were around me. I miss the times we spent each other with the wonderful moments and the most memorable times of my life. I miss you so much…And I cry… A tear for the day we met, a tear for the day you said you loved me, a tear for all the moments i held you in my arms, a tear for every kiss, a tear for what our future was meant to be, a tear for the moment you said goodbye, a tear for everything that was so true. I cry for the time that u were no longer mine, I cry for the memories I’ve left behind, I cry for the pain, the loss, I cry for myself… What’s life without you by my side? What’s waiting without you to hold on? What’s eternity without you to be with, and what’s love without you to call my own? Who am I without you…

I wonder why…why is it that after all the pain you've put me through I still seem to love you? Every time I see you, it’s like meeting you for the first time all over again. What can I do now with the memories of what we had, and the pain you left - but why is it that I love you…love you more than ever…

But eventually, I realize that I’m not what you need. So I’ll let you go but I know that I’ll think of you every step of your way. I will always love you. I hope that life will bring you the most beautiful things, and I hope you have all you’ve dreamed of, but above all these I wish you’d find the love of lifetime. And I will always love you…

Deep inside, I feel like I’m dying…

I love you. You mean everything to me.